Saba and Fawaz: 8

Saba: shfeek, sh9ayer??

I waited 5 minutes for a reply but he hadn't gotten on whatsapp since then. I decided to go into the 9ala since my mom would start wondering where I was now..Just as I was about to walk in i heard a woman shout

"degaw 3al es3aaf!"

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Saba: Eles3af? laish sh9ayerrr!!? ; I quickly ran over to the woman who yelled and asked.

Woman: um el 3aroos 6a7at 3alaina! 

Everything from there moved so fast, Before I knew it the wedding was finished and everyone had left.

Mom: maskeena khaltich allah yshafeeha ya rab, ehya shfeeha a9lan?

Saba: a3tiqid lail7een feeha 9ara6an

Mom: 9ara6an?! allah yashfeeha!

Saba: ameen, enzain mama 3ady arou7laha bl mustashfa?

Mom: akeed mumken bes laish? entaw mu graab

Saba: la bes ya3ne maskeena kasra kha6ry w madry chthy ya3ne eb nafs elwagt ashoufha shwaya

Mom: meta tabeen enrou7?

Saba: Madry wallah bacher? ana weyach 3al maghrb?

Mom: ok bes khal9ay wajbich w ne6la3

Saba: mashkoura


When we got home I quickly went to my room and changed into my pjs then called Fawaz...

Calling.....

no answer

Calling.....

no answer

Calling... *CALL ENDED*

....? Why did he end the call?

I got onto whatsapp and sent him a messge

Saba: "Fawaz red 3alay..."

online

last seen 1:58 am

Saba:"Fawaz..laish ta7gerny? enzain okay sema3t 3an umik bes ta7gerny laish? allah yashfeeha bes ana shsawait?"

Fawaz: Saba wallah maly khilg

Saba: enzain bes kalimny shda3wa

Fawaz: saba bes

Saba: ma a9adeg...enta laish kila chthy lama y9eer shay ma3ay lazem akalmik w ana maly khilg bes when something happens to you you wont even talk to me about it!

Fawaz: mara7 a2atheech khala9 erta7ay

Saba: ...

Fawaz: ?

Saba: just talk to me I know something is bothering you and you'll feel better

Fawaz: saba shfeech ma tefhmeen? geltlech bes khala9!

Saba: ok.. shda3wa e6ale3 7aretek 3alay khala9 I'll leave you alone bes bagoulik bacher bayee el mustashfa weya umy

Fawaz: ok mashkoureen matga9roun

Saba: el3afu...goodnight

Fawaz: gn


I can't deal with this now, I know it wasn't his fault and that we was going through something tough I just didn't understand why he was keeping me in the dark.

The next day went by fast and finally the time to go to the hospital came, I hoped to see Fawaz there even though we didn't speak to each other all day. When we got to the hospital I looked for her room and knocked the door. We walked in and there was khalty and Fawaz on her right, my mom and I salamna 3alaiha w ba3dain umy weyaha g3edaw ysolfoun. Fawaz got up to go outside.

Saba: mama 3ady ag3ad bara shwaya?

Mom: laish?

Saba: bes theej hnee

(the room was small)

Mom: okay bes reday ba3d shwaya bnamshy

Saba: enshallah

I walked out the room and looked around for Fawaz, where did he go?! I went out to the lobby to see if I could find him but I saw no one I walked outside by the valet parking wla asma3 a7ad ygoul esmy

"Saba?"

I turned around wila it was Fawaz

Saba: ga3da adawer 3alaik

Fawaz: Saba deshay dakhl

I saw him hiding something in his hand

Saba: shinu hatha?

I moved to his right to see what it was...

Saba: Fawaz? ent mn mita etdakhin?!

Fawaz: Saba please mu wagta al7een

Saba: mu wagta al7een?! 3ayal meta wagta??? lama tkharib galbik w tamrith? ba3dain tabeeny ayee agoulik hal kalam?

Fawaz: bes pleasae 9ada3tay rasy

Saba: ma a9adeg! sh9ar feek! ent mu el Fawaz ely a3rfa laish tghayart?! shly ghayerak!

I felt close to tears

Fawaz: la Saba stop la tabcheen la tga63een galby tadreen eny ma at7amal ashoufich tabcheen

I closed my eyes and the tears fell

Saba: Fawaz la tsawy feeny chthy tara ana akhaf 3alaik wayed laish tsawy chthy bnafsik al7een ent shayef shga3d y9eer eb umik wtrou7 etdakhin?

He threw the cigarette on the ground and stepped on it.

Fawaz: asif mara7 a3eedha mara thanya

Saba: e7lif

Fawaz: enshallah

Saba: fawaz 3ashany...

Fawaz: enshallah geltlech

Saba: okay....

I looked down at the ground not knowing what to do or say now...Fawaz came closer to me

Fawaz: emshay

Saba: wain bnrou7?

Fawaz: emshay w btshoufeen

Saba: um, okay

I followed him and we went up to the roof of the hospital

Saba: y9eer neg3ad hnee?

Fawaz: Ee

Saba: sh3arifak bhal mukan?

Fawaz: ams dawart mukan 3ashan ad-

Saba: 3ashan etdakhin.. adry

Fawaz: ee

We sat on the ground and looked up at the sky

Fawaz: shga3d tfakreen fee?

Saba: wla shay..you?

Fawaz: ashya2 wayid

Saba: mithl shinu?

Fawaz: umy, jam3a, 7ayate...kil shay...

Saba: Enshallah allah ygawim umik bl salama kila ad3eelha wallah

Fawaz: ma tga9reen

He looked so sad it killed me... :(

Saba: Yallah 3ad eth7ak...mn zeman ma sheft eltha7ka el7ilwa, wl ghamaza mekhtafya laish t3athibny chthy?

Fawaz: shlon ath7ak w ana bhal 7al?

Without thinking I began to tickle him

Fawaz: shfeech entay!

Saba: tghaar?

He started laughing so I took it as a yes

Fawaz: la bes- shaklich- ytha7k

He tried to speak between laughing but he couldnt

Saba: allah allah kaaaa hathy el tha7ka ely a7ibhaaa!

Fawaz: bes besssswagfay bes ahahaaaa wagfay khala9! anaawareech

He couldnt breathe in between his words and it made me laugh, I stopped tickling him because my hands got tired

Fawaz: ana awareech! Your turnnnn!

Suddenly he started to tickle me but instead around my neck

Saba: hahahahhahahhah bes bessss sorry khala9 mara7 a3eedha wallah wallaaaah bes wagif magdar

Fawaz: la wallahhhh?

Saba: ee please please pleaseeee!

He stopped tickling me and I tried to calm down from laughing I felt light headed

Fawaz: 3ashan tt3alimain matsaween chthy mara thanyal; he said while smiling at me

I missed that smile.

Saba: awal w akher mara asway chthy!

Fawaz: a7san!

We became quiet all of a sudden.

Fawaz: Saba?

Saba: Hala

Fawaz: umy btmout?

Saba: staghferallah shl kalam la enshallah bes kil ensan bemout!

Fawaz: la ya3ne...ray e6eeb?

Saba: enshallah laish la2??

Fawaz: a7es umy ra7 tmout..

Saba: FAWAZ! SHL KALAM!

Fawaz: Saba maby umy tmout...

I saw tears welling up in his eyes, I didn't know what to do so I leaned in to give him a hug. Something in the back of my head told me I'd regret this later. We stayed hugging for a while, he cried a little but we didn't say a word, then he started playing with my hair.

RINGGGG

I jumped up from my phone it scared me.

*mama calling*

Saba: aloo?

Mom: entay wainich?

Saba: ga3da bara

Mom: weya minu?????

Saba: ma7ad bes tawa mar Fawaz w salamt 3alaih

Mom: deshay dakhl bnamshy ba3d 5 minutes

Saba: enshallah al7een ayee

I ended the call and looked at Fawaz

Fawaz: shfeeha umich?

Saba: bnamshy al7een

Fawaz: la la ge3day ba3ad

Saba: wallah aby bes magdar

Fawaz: ta3alay bes dgeega mu galat 3indich 5 minutes?

Saba: ee

Fawaz: 3ayal ta3alay

He grabbed me in for another hug.

3 minutes later..

Saba: yallah lazem arou7 now 9ijj

Fawaz: Saba..

Saba: hmm

Fawaz: bagoulich shay

Saba: goul

I looked at him worried, why did he sound scared?

Fawaz: Saba ana a7bich

to be continued......

nothing like the first chapter 3

We had dinner and we caught up on everything between university, our weddings, pregnancy and where we went on our honeymoons to pretty much what we did last week. It went better than expected. After they paid the check we got up said our goodbyes and left. As I picked up my purse and turned around to walk after my husband I felt a pair of eyes burning a hole at the back of my head. I turned around and just as I expected M7amad was looking at me with those eyes of his.. those eyes thought held in so many memories and so much pain and regret. I gave him a weak smile as I kissed Jawa bye.

In the car

Khalid: wallah khoush 3asha ha?

Fatima: mmm

Khalid: shfeech 7abeebty 9ar7ana eb shinu?

Fatima: Hmm?

I turned to look at him as I snapped out of a day dream

Fatima: la 7abeeby mu 9ar7ana bes ga3da afker

Khalid: tfakreen eb shinu?

He took one hand off the steering wheel and laid it on mine, causing me to flinch unexpectedly.

Fatima: afaker eb 7amood..

wait what?! did I just really say that outloud?

Khalid: shfee 7amood?el khadama ma3a enshallah mafee shay w nayem al7een tabeen etdigeen tshoufeen shlona?

Fatima: La 3ady enshallah ma fee shay w nayem akeed

I looked at my watch 10:30 yea he was asleep for sure.


M7amads POV:

Jawa: 7amood

M7amad: hmm?

Jawa:7amooooood!

M7amad: hmmm?

Jawa: shfeek ma tred?!

M7amad: shfeech Jawa? giltlech hmm!

Jawa: shda3wa 3a9abt..?

M7amad: asfa 7abeebty bes shway ta3ban banam

Jawa: okay.. te9ba7 3ala khair

M7amad: wentay mn ahala

Kserat kha6ry Jawa chna degart'ha wehya kanat taby tsolif? Refa3t rasy mn el makhada w 3a6ait'ha bosa 3ala ras'ha wehya emghamtha 3younha chan ared eb mukany w a7awl anam. Ga3at afaker eb malyon shay madry shlon nemt...

THE NEXT DAY

Fatimas POV 

Ga3adt mn elnoum w legait mukan Khalood bl frash fathy, ghareeba...elyoum elyim3a waina? Ma wa3ait wla asma3 a7ad ydish el ghurfa

Khalid: 9ba7 el khair Fa6ooma

He walked in holding a tray with breakfast on it.

Fatima: 9ba7 elnour 7abeeby

I sat up straight leaning my back on the headboard of the bed.

Khalid: sawaitlich ryoug

Fatima: 7ayate enta mashkour, wain aklik ma taby takil ma3ay?

Khalid: maby akil aby a6al3ich wentay takleen hatha ely aby

I couldn't help blushing so I smiled and put my head down. He came closer to me and placed the tray on the bed then gave me a light kiss. I moved over to make space for him next to me and I grabbed a hair band to tie my hair up.

I picked up the fork to start eating as I was about to put the food in my mouth I noticed him smiling.

Fatima: shfeek?

Khalid: ma feeny shay

Fatima: magdar akil wenta ga3d et6ali3ny; I said shyly

Khalid: Ya 7alat ely yst7oun

His smile got wider and so did mine..

FLASHBACK

M7amad: miskay eedy

Fatima: asti7y

M7amad: afa...teste7een mny?

Fatima: ee!

I smiled at him I couldn't hide my smile he's the only one who made me feel this way

M7amad grabbed my hand and our hands fit together perfectly...it felt so perfect.

BACK TO REALITY

Fatima: ya 7alat ely ysawounly ryoug

I blew him a kiss then continued to eat my breakfast

After afew minutes he laid down next to me and looked up at the ceiling

Khalid: fa6oom

Fatima: hala

Khalid: tabeen ensafer?

Fatima: ensafer? wain enrou7?

Khalid: ay mukan tabeen trou7enla

Fatima: em....madry ya3ne 3endek dawam w ana 3indy 7amood madry a7is mu wagta ensafer

Khalid: oh..khala9 3ayal..

Fatima: bes etha taby enrou7 ma3indy mani3

Khalid: la khal9 dam mu wagta enrou7 bl wagt el munasib

I think he was hurt because after that he got up and left the room..

Suddenly I heard my phone ring, it was Jawa she called to see if I wanted to come over to her house tonight.

Ghareeba.. laish kela tabeena enshouf ba3ath? we're not in highschool anymore ya3ne mu fashla arou7 bait'ha w rayelha mnak? 3umoman gelt laha lazem akalim Khalid w agoulaha

I got up from bed and took the tray to the kitchen then went to talk to Khalid.

Fatima: Khalood...

Khalid: na3am

Fatima: barou7 bait Jawa mumken?

Khalid: akeed mumken tabeeny awadeech?

Fatima: La 3ady ana awady nafsy

Khalid: ok...

Hm..he was upset I could tell but I was too excited about tonight to let it get to me, I'm so selfish when it came to M7amad I hated it.

That night I got ready to go to Jawas' house, I changed and went downstairs to leave

Fatima: Khalid ana 6al3a..

Khalid: deerbalich 3ala nafsich

He got up from the couch and opened the door for me. When I got to Jawas house I called her tot ell her I was outside.

Jawa: al7een aba6ilich el bab

Fatima: okayy

I felt nervous..what if he was there? what will I do? How will I act..? is this wrong?

Just then the door opened I looked up to see who opened the door..

M7amad: Hala wallah Fatima

I was speechless..