Saba and Fawaz: 14

Fawaz: a7ibich

I gasped when I saw what he sent and somehow my whole mind went blank..

Murooj: Saba shfeech?

I looked at her with my face like this ":o"

Murooj: Saba?

I ignored her and began moving my fingers across my screen without touching the letters because I didn't know what to say


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Saba: shinu...?


Fawaz: shinu shinu..


Saba: t7ibny?


The whole time I was getting weird looks from Murooj, then she gave up and started looking through her movies to find one to watch.

Fawaz: ee a7ibich a7ibich a7ibich! maby athaye3 wagty sakit o at7asaf 3ala yom etha khesartich 7ag ghairy

Saba: Fawaz min9ijik wla ga3ad ttghashmar?

I felt heat rushing to my face it was a whole new feeling...

Fawaz: do I look like im joking? Saba please ta3alay el9ala bakalmich tukfain

Saba: akhaf

Fawaz: mn shinu!

Saba: madry

Fawaz: 3ayal ta3alay bashra7lich kil shay

Saba: mm ok

Fawaz: 2 mins o bakoun hnak enzain?

Saba: ok

Fawaz: ;*

I felt weird sending ;* to him it never really meant much before but now it will probably mean something. I dont know how to feel this is the first time a guy says he loves me like that.. madry shinu elmafrouth a7is madry shinu lazem agoul madry!!!!

I made up an excuse and left the room to meet Fawaz in the 9ala

I went down the stairs but I couldnt see anyone, I looked around and the 9ala was empty.

"saba"

I turned around to find him leaning against the wall under the staircase in the small open space.

Saba: hey

Fawaz: he *smiling like a child*

Saba: mm..so? kint taby tgouly shay?

Fawaz: ee..

*awkward silence*

Saba: enzain... goul

Fawaz: Saba ana mnziman a7ibich, gabl kint a7isich mthl ekhty and nothing more but then I realized I really love you. I've always loved you even when we were kids and my mom allah yer7amha used to take us out I remember I always felt connected to you but now I understand why. You have this thing in you that makes me happy no matter what is going on in my life, and I know I wont find a girl like you so please give me a chance

He started talking really fast and getting really nervous so I had to slow him down

Saba: la7tha fawaz..

Fawaz: shinu

Saba: ana wla mara 7abat wa7d..

Fawaz: o ana wla mara 7abait wa7da

Saba: laish ana

Fawaz: bes, ana abeech, galby ye7tajich, ana a7tajech! fehmeeny ana a7ibich Saba a7ibichhh!

Saba: bes Fawaz..

Fawaz: 3youna

Saba: ahly ma rabony cthy

Fawaz: Saba ana mu ga3da al3ab ana mn9ejy a7ibich adry youre taking a big chance bes 3a6eeny fur9a tukfain

Saba: madry Fawaz lazem afaker o ba3dain agoulik ma3ana hal shay ma yabeela tafkeer elmafrouth agoulik la2 3ala 6oul..

Fawaz: la saba please

MurooJ (shouting from the other room): Saba! yallahhhh

Saba: umbaih lazem arou7 mabeeha tshoufna hnee ba3dain ra7 tfaker ghala-

Murooj (standing behind them): Fawaz?

Fawaz: hala Murooj

Murooj: Saba shga3a tsaween?

Saba: Kint barou7 el ma6bakh chan ashouf Fawaz 6ale3

Murooj: el ma6bakh mu hal 9ob...

Saba: qa9dy sema3t a7ad ga3d yamshy fa yeet ashouf mnu..

Murooj: ahaa..

she gave me a "latchathbeen" look and then looked at Fawaz, all of a suddent her voice became higher and more daloo3a-y

Murooj: ha Fawaz, mashy laish wayid embacher eg3ad shwayaaaa

Fawaz: wallah ta3ban o waray alf shaghla lazem asaweeha esm7eely

Murooj: ohh good luck 3ayal ashoufik....emm, bacher enshallah?

Saba: tshoufeena?

Murooj: ya3ne I mean eyee 7ag ukhouy mu 7agy *dala3 laugh*

Saba: aha...

Fawaz: y9eer khair, yallah 3ayal ma3a elsalama

He looked at me, his eyes still begging me silently, and walked out.

I turned to Murooj

Saba: Murooj..

Murooj: ha?

Saba: theglay shwaya wayid ga6a nafsich 3al walad -.-

Murooj: min9ijich entay?

Saba: ee wallah min9ijy

For some reason I felt protective over him, as if he was mine and only mine...which he wasnt..

Murooj: 7abeebty ma a7taj a7ad ygouly athgil lany thgeela o mala da3y hal kalam, o mn meta yhimich ana shlon akalim Fawazyy

Saba: Fawazyy???

Murooj: tara ashkara y7ibny bes madry shfeech ma tshoufeen hal shay

I laughed under my breath

Murooj: shetha7ik?!

Saba: laa wla shay

Murooj: laish m7tara? el rayal y7ibny sh7arechh??

Saba: 9adgeeny lo ba7tar entay btkounen akher wa7da a7tar mnha

I couldn't believe me and Murooj were actually fighting over a guy...

Murooj: la wallah?!!

Saba: Ee wallah, madry shfeech 9ayra wayid tshoufeen nafsich zyada 3an el lzoom! o 9adgeeny Fawaz ma y7ibich

I picked up my bag and got up to leave

Saba: ana barou7

Murooj: wain???

Saba: barid el bait lana maby at'hawash o gmtay tnarfizeeny

Murooj: shd3waa -.-

Saba: wallah jad.. ma7ib shlon wayid ga6a nafsich 3alaih lana adry ena uhwa ma y7ibich

Murooj: gouleely shdarach ma y7ibny!

Saba: Lana.....lana a3rfa 3adil o ana weya 7adna close

Murooj: mn mita?

Saba: mn gabl cham sbou3

Murooj: aha fa kalimach 3any akeed 9a7?

Saba: UFFF Murooj MA Y7EBECH BES FILEEHA!

I stormed out the room and went out to my car and got in..Fawaz is mine, onlyyyy MINE.. she can't have him. Not now, not ever. And just then I made up my mind, I knew what to tell Fawaz.

Saba and Fawaz: 13

Fawaz: etha teqadamtlich...twafqeen?

Saba: shinu??!

Fawaz: bes goulay ee wla la2 la tfashleeny

Saba: min9ejek ga3d tes2al wla ga3d ttghashmar ba3ad

Fawaz: la min9ijy..

I just looked at my screen like this :o


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Saba: fawaz madry shagoulik ya3ne mu shay agdar ajawib 3alaih chthy 3araft?

My heart was pounding really really fast! I wanted to scream YESS but I didn't want to look desperate.

Fawaz: bes su2al shfeech ma gelt basaweeha..

Saba: ohh

I felt my heart sink to my stomach :( I was disappointed

Fawaz: enzain ee wela la2?

He wanted Saba to just say yes, he was tired of hiding his feelings towards her for so long, and with the death of his mother and his sister getting married he just really wanted someone and Saba was perfect for him.

Saba: Awafiq laish la2

Fawaz: shinu laish la2 chny ana wla shay 3endech :p mu taris 3ainich ana wla shinu?

Saba: LOOOL laaa shakuuuuuu bes ya3ne ma tadry mnu yetqadamly :p yemken a7la minik

Fawaz: afaaa :( ya3ne ana mu 7ilo?

Saba: embala embala ent 7iloo ;p

Fawaz: adry mu lazem tgoulen a9lan ana jameel ;)

Saba: la wallah? mn meda7 nafsa yabeela rafsa ;p

Fawaz: tabeen t3rfeen mnu a7la mny?

Saba: mnuu -.-

Fawaz: esemha yabdy eb S

Saba: hm.....

Fawaz: Sa

Saba: I wonderrrr who it could beeeee

Fawaz: Sab..

Saba: mmm, ana?

Fawaz: ufff mashallah thakeya! shlon 3araftay?

Saba: madry wallah ya3nee yany e7sas ena its me:p

Fawaz: ahaa ;p

Saba: lol

Fawaz: bes tara entay 9ij 7ilwa.. mu ghashmara

Saba: mashkour :$

Fawaz: la la laaa mesta7ya???

Saba: chubb laa2!

Fawaz: ha 3ayal laish t76een ":$"

Saba: kaify

Fawaz: aha kaifich? ee enzain :)

Saba: :)

Fawaz: lets play truth or dare

Saba: random... bes yallah ok

Fawaz: entay awal, truth or dare?

Saba: mm...truth

Fawaz: youre such a girl 3ala6oul truth yal khawafa :p

Saba: LOL chub ;p

Fawaz: ok hmm... ever been inlove?

Saba: never

Fawaz: you never even liked a guy?

Saba: your turn :p I cant answer that until it's my turn again

Fawaz: fine, truth

Saba: Ever been inlove?

Fawaz: never

Saba: chathab

Fawaz: wallah el3atheem

Saba: shlon -.-

Fawaz: shinu shlon ba3ad wla mara 7abait lazem a7ib ya3ne??!

Saba: la mu gha9dy chthy bes ya3ne.. nvm nvm yallah ask me

Fawaz: ok turth or dare

Saba: truth

Fawaz: tabeen ensamy el la3ba truth or truth? lana shaklich btnageen truth kil mara :p

Saba: adry! LOL

Fawaz: did you ever talk to a guy? ghairy ana ya3ne tkalmeen wa7d akthar mn just friends

Saba: la2...

Fawaz: dory

Saba: did you ever talk to a girl as more than friends?

Fawaz: la2

Saba: fawaz ga3d tgoul el 9ij wla shinu?

Fawaz: shinu shayftany Saba..? tara Im not a player mu 3ashan kil el shabab ely tshoufonhum aw tesm3oun 3anhum ythab6oun w 3endehum suwalif banat ya3ne ana methelhum.. ana mu fathy 3ashan akalim wa7da a9lan

Saba: ok..shfeek 3a9abt

Fawaz: ma 3a9abt bes abeech tefhmeen

Saba: fahamt

Fawaz: agoulich shay?

Saba: goul

Fawaz: entay awal bint 9ej arta7laha

Saba: shlon ya3ne?

Fawaz: ya3ne entay awal wa7da a7is 9ej tefhmeeny

Saba: taby agoulik shay ba3ad?

Fawaz: goulay

Saba: ana ba3ad wayid arta7 lama akalmik..

FAWAZ'S POINT OF VIEW

a7ibha wallah a7ibha! bes akhaf agoulaha w tkhtere3 aw t7es enha mu merta7a! shasawy?? magdar ma akalimha lazem akalimha kil yom wila ma arta7. There's something about her thats so perfect she makes me feel like theres still hope for me a7is ena 7ata lo khesart ashya2 wayid etha ehya ma3ay kel hal ashya2 ma teswa a9lan.

Fawaz: ma tadreen shkither ana mestanis al7een..

Saba: mny ana?

*akeed minich ya 7abeebty..* Kan wedy agoulaha 7abeebty bes ma agdar!

Fawaz: akeed minich 3ayal mn minu :p

Saba: I'm glad :D

Back to Saba's point of view

We kept playing for a few more minutes then I got tired and told him I had to sleep.

The next day I woke up really late at around 3-4 pm

ding!

I checked my phone wila murooj texted me

Murooj: wainich?

Murooj: alooooo

Murooj: yal kalba entay lail7een nayma!!!?

Murooj: enzain ana awareech lama tgoumeen

Saba: gm :p

Murooj: gm ha? elsa3a 4! YALLAH TA3ALAY

Saba: enzain al7een abadil wayeech

Murooj: yalla im waiting

Saba: ;p

Murooj: she put the -.- face

After I got ready and was about to leave the house I got a message from Fawaz.

Fawaz: gm :p

Saba: gm

Fawaz: tara ana yay bait murooj now entay wainich?

Saba: tawny 6al3a 10 mins w o9al 3endaha

Fawaz: enzain gabl la edisheen ne6reeny ayee 3ashan thnainatna nkoun 3end el bab bnafs el wagt

Saba: enshallah

When I reached bait'ha ne6art bl sayara taghreeban 5 mins 3ala ma yo9al Fawaz. We he got there he parked his black range and got out, he had sunglasses on and a almost tight white shirt on that flattered his muscles and made his six pack show more, the white also made his tan stand out more. He also had on black knee length shorts and was wearing dark beige toms, when I saw him he looked perfect...guys dont always pull off Toms but wow..Fawaz sure did.
 
He flashed me a smile and signaled for me to get out the car, I got out and walked with him to the gates.

Fawaz: hala shlonich?

Saba: zaina *smiling*

Fawaz: shfeech mesta7ya *with a grin on his face that made my heart melt*

Saba: shaku mesta7ya? wallah la2 *I said while looking at the ground*

I dont know why I was feeling so nervous! why did I feel he was like my bf all of a sudden? was it because of what I told him yesterday??

Fawaz: enzain 6al3eeny shda3wa *teasing way*

I looked at him and gave him a smile

Saba: yallah endish?

Fawaz: afaa ya3ne ma tabeen etkalmeeny? *he said in a joking sad tone*

Saba: la mu 3an bes a7is shakilna mm...madry shlon agoulik ya3ne ghala6 chthy wagfeen bara ma3a ba3th

Fawaz: mu merta7a?

Saba: la embala bes ya3-

he cut me off

Fawaz: khala9 3ayal endish dakhl wla t'thayegain *he said in a sincere way that made me relieved*

We had an awkward silence for 3 seconds then we both suddenly reached out to ring the door bell.

Our hands touched and it felt like a shock went through my body.

*Saba and Fawaz looking at each other with their hadns touching*

I moved my hand away and so did he

Fawaz: asif

Saba: la 3ady ma sawait shay *I gave him an awkward smile*

suddenly Murooj came to open the door

Murooj: heyy!

I turned around to see her, I hope she wasnt there to see what happened just now

I walked up the steps, Fawaz behind me and we both said hello and went inside.

When we went in I went to her room and Fawaz went to the duwaneya 

Murooj: Saba bagoulich shay!

Saba: goulay

Murooj: bes sem3ay o la tgouleen shay ela lama akhali9

Saba: enzain? *weird tone*

Murooj: a7is Fawaz mu3jab feeny...ya3ne ashoufa kela gam eyee baitna o kha9atan lama entay tyeen ya3ne a7es eeyee bes 3ashan yshoufny o lama entay mawjouda yegdar yrage3 el salfa w ykalminy lanich mawjouda hnee fa 3alabona besalim 3alaina bes ya3ne yaby yshoufny

Saba: min9ejech? *I held back the laughter*

Murooj: Eee! ma la7athatay??

Saba: ee ee emabal la7atht *trying hard not to laugh*

Murooj: sheftay!

Saba: bes entay t7ibeena?

Murooj: tabeen el9ij?

Saba: akeed

Murooj: amout 3alaih..

Saba: shnu?! *I became angry all of a sudden*

Murooj: shfeech bismillah... giltlech ee a7eba

Saba: bes laish ya3ne shinu ely fee ya3jibich *suddenly I became protective over him*

Murooj: mm ya3ne yshawig kil shay fee 7ilo, ytha7ek w ywanis o y3aref yet3amal ma3ay o uhwa rfeej okhouy fa y3arefna 3adel o chthy o ba3ad ena....

She kept going on and on, and I just became more and more mad

I had on a bitchy smile my face was like this :)

suddenly my phone vibrated.

Fawaz: Saba..

I looked at my phone the way he wrote it made me worried.

(back to murooj)

Murooj:  o ya3ne jesma, umbaih jesmaa?? NAR w tha7kita waayy cute! w shakla mithl elteddy bear 3araftay ely chthy madry shlon wedich t3itheena ya3ne mn kither ma uhwa yshawig...

she kept talking as I pretended to pay attention but I actually was replying to Fawaz.

Saba: Hala

Fawaz: typing

Fawaz: online

Fawaz: typing..

*shfee hatha...*

Fawaz: a7ibich

I gasped when I saw what he sent and somehow my whole mind went blank..

Murooj: Saba shfeech?

I looked at her with my face like this ":o"

Murooj: Saba?

I ignored her and began moving my fingers across my screen without touching the letters because I didn't know what to say

Saba and Fawaz: 12

ding!

Whatsapp; Fawaz

tawny mkalmita shfee?

I was about to unlock my phone wila ashouf obouy wagf 3end 7osh baitna,.w kan em3a9iiiiiiiiib

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I got near to him and I could tell he was really angry.

Saba: salam 3laiku-

Dad: deshay dakhel

Saba: e-eenshalah....

dashait el bait w 3youny bl arth khift ashoufa yhfny kaf aw shay! madry laish em3a9ib laih hal darja..Allah yaster

I walked into the house and found my mom standing in the middle of the 9ala, shwaya wela asma3 bab el bait yn9ak w obouy ygareb.

Dad: wain kentay?

Saba: Kent bl fe-

Dad: LATCHATHBEEN WAIN KENTAY?!

Saba: yuba ana kint bl fer3 wallah kent bl fer-

He then pulled me by my hair and came close to me, I've never seen him like this before...

Dad: Saba.3an.el.chthb. Akher mara as2ilich! WAIN KENTAY!!

Saba: geltlek! kent bel fer3 ray7a ashtery aghrath ka shouf!

I lifted my bag up to show him.

Dad: Ana kent bel fer3 lama umich dagat 3alaich ma sheft ay a7ad, al7een betgoulenly el9ij wila btkamleen 3ala chethbetech?

Saba: yuba wallah el3atheem re7t el fer3 yemken ma la7agt 3alay aw ma sheftny!

Dad: mn kubur el fer3 ma ashoufich?

He pulled my by my hair harder and I started to cry from the pain.

Mom: bes khala9 Talal ana batfaham ma3aha, had a39abik w rou7 eg3ad

He slowly let go of my hair and looked at me in disgust then went to sit down.

Mom ( whispering in my ears ): etha 3abalich entay thakeya tara e7na n3arfech w n3aref hal 7arakat w laykoun 3abalich lana e7na kbar mu athka menech. La 7abeebty n3aref fa t7achay al7een 3ashan ma tt7asifain.

For a second I thought of telling them, but then again I knew my parents would kill me if they knew I got in a car with a guy even if it was JUST fawaz...

Saba: entaw mn 9ejkum shakeen feeny?? Al7een ana mu bentkum?? laish chthy! laish maku theqa baina!

Mom: ya3ne mu9era enich ray7a el fer3?

Saba: EE YUMA EE!

my mom and dad turned to look at each other and they gave up.

Dad: rou7ay darech w 7sabna ma3ach ba3dain

I picked up my bag and wiped my tears and when to my room to cry, again.

after I fell asleep for 2 hours my mom came in to tell me the new "rules" I wasnt allowed to go out the house after 6 I had to tell them when, where, with who and why I was going out. They wanted all my friends numbers aswell as their parents numbers and also I wasn't allowed out to the fer3 without permission. I hate them! I hate my family and I hate my life! they were never like this! I didn't even do anything wrong!!!! well I did but uhma laish yshikoun feeny!!! wai3

I had no choice but to follow the new rules, I hate this.

after the 3 days mn Fawazs' moms' death Fawaz was talking to me more and more everyday. We would spend hours on end just talking on the phone or texting. Everyday I started to like him more and more it was so...weird.. I think I love him.

Fawaz: Saba meta betyeen bait Murooj?

Saba: laish?

Fawaz: 3ashan ashoufich mnak

Saba: tawik shayefny shtaby feeny

Fawaz: I want to thank you in person..wallah sa3adteeny akthar mn ay a7ad a3arfa in the past few days

Saba: mm...madry meta barou7

Fawaz: tegdreen bacher?

Saba: lazem ehya ta3zimny my9eer a3zem nafsy

Fawaz: kalmeeha w shoufay she9eer

Saba: ok

I called Murooj and we talked, like I expected she asked me to come over tomorrow, I asked my dad and since he knows murooj and her family well he allowed me to go,

Saba: Fawaz barou7 bacher mn 5-8

Fawaz: bes? shwaya!

Saba: adry it's part of my stupid punishment

Fawaz: waaih.. ma 3alaih ayeelich wla yhemech

Saba: :$

Fawaz: Saba?

Saba: hmm?

Fawaz: 3endy su2al

Saba: es2al

Fawaz: entay....ehm..

Saba: ??

Fawaz: entay meta nawya ttzawijain?

Saba: atzawaj?! laish??

Fawaz: la bes as2al ya3ne bes aby a3rf

Saba: aha umm lama atkharaj aw lama eyeely eln9eeb 9ara7a ma yhemny meta al7een ba3dain 3ugub sena aw 4 sneen 3ady

Fawaz: laish ma yhemech?

Saba: lana el wagt ma yafreg m3ay el ensan ely batzawija uhwa ely yafrig

Fawaz: enzain eyounlich khi6ab?

Saba: ee eyounly bes mu wayid tawny bismellah ma midany atkharaj w adish el jam3a

Fawaz: ee 9a7... enzain lo yalich wa7id wild 7alal w zain w y7ebech al7een terthain?

Saba: lol shfeech sh'hal as2ila?

Fawaz: lol bes jawbay :p aby a3rf el banat shlon yfakroun

Saba: lol enzain emm ee akeed laish agoul la2 akeed bagoul ee etha zain w kil shay mafy shay nagi9 artha

Fawaz: enzain entay sht7been bl wa7d ya3ne lo ygolonlich to make a list of things you like shinu uhma those things?

Saba: hmm thats a hard question... akeed lazem ykoun 7ilo, w tan, w sh3ra g9eer, lazem ykoun 6weel bes my wayid 6weel, lazem jesma ykoun 7ilo w shakh9eeta 7ilwa ba3ad, lazem y3aref shlon yhtam eb masha3r el bent w y3aref shlon ydali3ny w ykalimny eb esloub zain. Ba3ad shinu hmm...lazem ma ykoun 7ail metshadid w mu 3a9abey lazem yghar 3alay w ma yertha a7ad yt7arash feeny. Lazem ykoun uhwa ely rab3a kilhum wedhum ykonon methla w lazem ykhaf raba w y9aly. Ma yshrab, ma ydakhin, w ma3enda suwalif tethebe6 w banat...

Fawaz: ULLAHH entay wain btelgainlech rayel allah y3een ahalich ebtalshaw feech

Saba: 7maaaaarrrr! laish maku ryayeel chthy?!

Fawaz: yemken bl aflam ee bes bl 9ej laaaaa2

Saba: laish???

Fawaz: guys want one thing :p

Saba: chub Fawaz jad ma t'tha7ik

Fawaz: atghshmar atghashmar fee chthy bes mu wayid

Saba: enzain dawerly wa7d yakh6ebny :p

Fawaz: ka ana kil hal ashya2 ely gilteeha shfeeny ana?

Saba: la wallah ;p

Fawaz: ee wallah mn9ejy laish ana mu hal ashya2?

Saba: mmm....madry ent gouly

Fawaz: Saba

Saba: shfeek tgoul esmy chthy chenek emsawy mu9eeba lol na3am?

Fawaz: etha teqadamtlich...twafqeen?

Saba: shinu??!

Fawaz: bes goulay ee wla la2 la tfashleeny

Saba: min9ejek ga3d tes2al wla ga3d ttghashmar ba3ad

Fawaz: la min9ijy..

I just looked at my screen like this :o


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to be continued

Saba and Fawaz: 11

She walked towards me and lifted her hand to slap me across the face..

To be continued

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Saba: yuma wallah ma sawait shay!!

I screamed just a second too late, her hand already slapped my face and left a mark.

Mom: entay ma teste7een 3ala wayhich?! ma rabainach a7san mn chthy?! yallah thelfay darech yallah!

I couldn't manage to say anything else so I walked up to my room sobbing as the tears streamed down my face. I got to my room and locked the door then took out my phone.

*dialing Fawaz*

no answer, redial...? no answer again! redial..

Fawaz: Aloo?

Saba: Fawaz :(

Fawaz: Saba shfeech?

*sniff sniff*

Saba: umy 6agatny

Fawaz: aa7! laish sh9ar? la7thaa la7tha entay ga3da tabcheen??

Saba: Fawaz shsawy? umy 3abalha ana mwa3ditik elyom lama shafny khaly shasawy ehya fahma kil shay ghala6!

Fawaz: ne6ray cham sa3a w ba3dain rou7ay kalmeeha bhdou2 w la tabcheen

*tga6a3 galb Fawaz lama sema3ha tabchy, awal mara y7es bhal shu3oor*

They ended the call and Saba went to wash her face and change before going to talk to her mom.

nezalt ta7at 3ashan ashouf umy wainha wela algaha ga3da bl 9ala 3al qanafa.

Saba: mama?

Mom: hmm

Saba: 3ady akalmich?

Mom: tkalmay

Saba: yuma entay w khaly fahamtaw kil shay ghala6.. w thelamteeny.. tadreen mnu hatha ely shafny asalim 3alaih elyoum?

She didnt answer..

Saba: mama hatha kan Fawaz..

Mom: Fawaz: Al-X?

Saba: ee yuma ba3ad fee ghaira?

Mom: ya3ne ma kentay mwa3da wa7d?

Saba: yuma ana bentech bhal s'houla tshikeen feeny? mu entay ely mrabyatny? shhal kalam..

Mom: wallah ana asfa 7abeebty bes uhwa ba3ad t3arfeena khalich khara3ny w khalany afaker ashya2 mu zaina ba3ad shsawy um w akhaf 3ala binty

Saba: ma aloumich yumaaa ana fahma gha9dich bes ena entay 7ata ma 3a6aiteeny fur9a eny ashra7lich my9eer chthy :(

I felt the tears stinging my eyes and my cheek begin to heat up from where I was slapped.

Mom: ana asfa 7abeebty sam7eeny

Saba: akeed basam7ich mama bes please mra thanya latshikeen feeny chthy..

Mom: enshallah 7abeebty

I gave her a kiss on her head and went back up to my room.

*ding!*

Whatsapp: Fawaz

Fawaz: sh9ar ma3ach?

Saba: t2asifat

Fawaz: ashwa el7imdellah

ga3dna ana w Fawaz ensolif 7ag cham sa3a lama gumt adoukh

Saba: Fawaz

Fawaz: hmm?

Saba: banam

Fawaz: yallah ana ba3ad

Saba: ok gn x

Fawaz: gn, w sam7eeny 3ala elyoum ok?

Saba: ok :p

I put my phone off and went to sleep, tomorrow was going to be a big day..and no not in a good way.

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Next day:


Mom: Saba!

Saba: bismillah shfeek t9arkheen? 3asa ma shar

Mom: ta3alay bser3a!

Saba: kany yaya

I got out of bed and ran to my moms room to see what was happening

Mom: Saba :(

Saba: shfeech??

Mom: khaltich..

Saba: ay khala??

Mom: um Fawaz

Saba: shfeeha???

Mom: twafat

Saba: SHINU!?

Mom: tawa we9aly el khabar

Saba: la mu9eer shlon! ga3da tt3alaj mafeeha shay!! shinu?? ha?? shlon!!!

Mom: allah  yer7amha

I quickly ran back to my room remembering that my phone was switched off, I switched it back on and saw 8 new messages all broadcasts saying stuff like "allah yer7amha" w ad3eya w meta byadfenonha w wain el 3aza.

Dashait 3ala chat Fawaz wla his last seen gabl cham dgeega.

dialing: fawaz

ya rab he picks up ya rab he picks up ya rab he picks up!!!

ring---ring---ring---beep beep beep....

sada  :o

Dashait el chat w dazaitla message.

Saba: Fawaz adry enik malik khilg a7ad, 3atham allah ajrek if you need me you know where to find me.

I went back to see the details of the 3aza, wela the mens 3aza is right next to the womans 3aza

that day me and my mom went to the 3aza but like I expected, Fawaz ignored my message he didnt even go in whatsapp to read it and he wouldn't answer any calls AND I didn't see him.

When I got back home I changed out of my 3abaya and went to bed to rest.. faj2a wila ashouf mobiley gam yhiz..

Incoming call: Fawaz

I accepted the call and waited for him to talk first.

Fawaz: .....*crying*

Saba: Fawaz...?

Fawaz: I need you

Saba: I'm here

Fawaz: la la I NEED you

Saba: ya3ne shlon

Fawaz: ya3ne lazem ashoufich

Saba: ehmm ok bes wain?

(I couldn't say no and break his heart more)

Fawaz: el fer3 yam baitkum I'll be there in 10

Saba: ok see you then

I wore my training and a black hoodie I look really casual, kind of like a guy it was the look I was going for I didn't want to attract any attention.

I walked to the fer3 and waited for the parking. 2 minutes later a black car showed up, it was Fawazs' car. He rolled down the window

Fawaz: get in

Saba: na3am??

Fawaz: Saba..

Saba: fine

I opened the door and sat in the front seat. He drove into the far end of the parking lot and parked the car, his windows emqayema fa ma7ad yegdar yshoufna.

Saba: so... want to talk..?

Fawaz: mmnasmns....

He started mumbling stuff I couldn't understand, suddenly I saw dmou3 falling down his face and they were alot.

Fawaz: Saba...matat umy khala9 ra7at bes ma3indy um..al7een la 3indy um wla 3indy obou w ekhty shwa wbtzawaj..wain arou7 ana? ma kan 3indy a7ad bhal denya ghairha w ham ehya ra7at

He started crying more and more and it broke my heart. I never saw a guy cry and for some reason it made me love him...even more than I already did.

Saba: you have me..

Fawaz: aby umy Saba abeeha

Saba: goul allah yer7mha tara elbachy ma yfeed :( Fawaz la t3awer galby ma7ib ashoufik chthy magdar

Fawaz: shasawy Saba wallah mu beedy 7awalt I stay strong bes khala9 magdar MAGDAR!
He punched the steering wheel with his fist, it scared me a little bit.

Saba: shway shway Fawaz breathe it's going to be ok

Fawaz: goulele shlon! shlon!!! SHLON BARID EL BAIT W MA ALGA UMY SHLON!

Saba: Fawaz sam belra7man hatha wagt'ha ba3ad shitsawy? 7awalt twadeeha kil el decatra ely gedart 3alaihum bes hatha qadr allah ya yomha ba3ad el ensan ma yegdar yet7akam bhal umoor

Fawaz: kila miny, kil yom 6ali3 raye7 duwaneya w kila shalaih bes lama fethait re7tlaha, ga3adt 3endaha...kanat taby a7ad...taby ay a7ad mara kbeera mareetha maskeena...umy 7abeebty w rou7y w galby kila miny matat ana elsebab!!

Saba: FAWAZ! SH'HAL 7ACHY!? ent sawait ely 3alaik! 3umrik la tgoul hal kalam!

Tfaja2 eny gumt a9arikh bes wallah ya3ne magedart asta7mil! ma gedart asma3a ygoul ena wafat uma kanat eb sebeta!

After he calmed down abit we started talking, I made him smile once so that was an improvement.

Fawaz: aaakhhh rasyy ga3d yethba7ny

Saba: taby panadol? anzil el fer3 ayeeblik tara fee 9adaleya yamna ba3ad

Fawaz: la la ma7taj

Saba: 3ayal shinu taby..

Fawaz;....

silence

I could tell he was about to cry again so wihtout thinking I moved in closer to him, He closed his eyes for a while and I think he started to drift off into sleep..his head slowly started leaning towards mt shoulders until his head was completely on my shoulder and somewhat on my chest. I couldn't wake him up this was probably the only sleep he got in the past 2 days. He was gorgeous, his beautiful eyes so gently closed and his thick dark eyelashes all perfect and neat I looked at his nose, sharp and defined perefectly not too big and not too small, then his lips- oh his lips were so perfect words could not describe them. his facial hair showed he haden't shaved for a while and it gave him a sexy scruffy look which went perfectly with is tanned skin. 10 minutes later his mouth opened a bit while he was sleeping.

ringggg ringgggg

someone was calling me. I checked my phone wila it was my mom.

I gently moved Fawazs' head so I could answer the phone.

Mom: Saba? wainich? wain 6al3a w ma tgolenly mn meta e7na nertha tsaween chthy?? entay weya mnu!?

Saba: yuma haday shway shway la t7ateen ana bl fer3 re7t ashtereely cham shghala

Mom: la wallah? w laish 3indina rajoo?? mu 3ashan eyeeblich agrath mn el fer3? mn meta tsaween hal 7arakat Saba!

Saba: ana asfa yuma bes hal shay fashala goula yrou7 eyeebly yah!

Mom: laih hal daraja te7tajain hal shay? ma gedartay tyeen 3indy thosufeen etha fee eb ghurfity??

Saba: asfa yuma mara7 a3eedha kany shwaya w ared el bait

Mom: batfaham ma3ach lama tredeen yallah bser3a la6waleen na6ritich ana

I looked over to see Fawaz sleeping so calmly and my heart ached at the thought of waking him up.

Saba: enshallah, yallah bye

shwaya chan agawma

Saba: Fawaz..
I nudged his arms a little

Saba: Fawaz........

Fawaz: mmm

Saba: Fawaz: goum umy m3a9ba tabeeny ared el bait betzefny

Faawaz: mm bs dgeega..

He mummbled and went back to sleep

Saba: Fawaz goum! agoulik umy na6ra tzfny bl bait lazem amshy!

Fawaz: asif asif wallah

He quickly got up and realized he had dozed off and slept on me

Saba: 3ady bes wallah lazem arou7 asfa..

Fawaz: la lat2asifainly ana ely asifa athahitich bes I needed you

Saba: ma athaitny wla shay I'm always here bes yallah lazem arou7

Fawaz: ok

I moved to open the door

Fawaz: Saba..

I turned to look at him

Saba: hala

Fawaz just stared at me not saying anything

Fawaz: la khala9 wla shay

Saba: ok....

Fawaz: bye

Saba: bye kalimny meta ma taby

Fawaz: mashkoura matga9reen

Saba: ma sawait shay

I got out of the car and went in to the fer3 to buy my "stuff" then I quickly walked home..


ding!

Whatsapp; Fawaz

tawny mkalmita shfee?

I was about to unlock my phone wila ashouf obouy wagf 3end 7osh baitna,.w kan em3a9iiiiiiiiib






 

Saba and Fawaz: 10

He looked at me one more time, my mouth was still slightly open because of how surprised I was. He glanced my way then put his hand on the girls back and walked into the cinema.

to be continued..

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Sara: Saba shfeech yallah ya2 dorna

She pulled me by my arm to the place where we get the tickets, my head was still facing where Fawaz was standing with that..that.., girl.

Ghalia took the tickets and we went straight into the theater. We sat in our seats and just my luck Fawaz and that girl were 3 rows down and 2 seats away from me. The cinema wasn't so crowded so I got a really good view of them.

Ghalia: laish ma yebna shay nakla ye3t! :(

Sara: wallah 7ata ana ye3t tabeen nrou7 nakhethlena shay wenrid?

Ghalia: Eee yallah goumaw

Saba; La ana mu mishtahya akil entaw rou7aw ana bag3ad

Ghalia & Sara: Okay

They went out the cinema and left me to sit alone and think, well there wasnt much thinking going on actually it was mostly me trying to discreetly look at Fawaz and the girl. Surprisingly she was on her phone typing the whole time while he just sat there and none of them said a word. Suddenly he took out his phone from his back pocket and began typing.

I took my phone out too so that I could check if he was on whatsapp, and he was..

I opened our chat and his status was "typing"

I waited and waited for him to send the message.

ding!

Fawaz: Saba she's not my date, its a long story I'll explain when I'm home.

Saba: no need to explain anything to me Fawaz..have fun

Fawaz: ?

Saba: shinu..?

Fawaz: 3a9abtay?

Saba: la

Fawaz: enzain wainich?

Saba: turn around and look to the left.

He turned around and looked until he saw me and a beautiful smile spread across his gorgeous face.

Fawaz: la7gatny 3adil elyoum :p

Saba: chub lol :p ma kent adry 3anik btyee a9lan

Fawaz: 9a7 9a7  ;p

I started to smile again, just then Ghalia and Sara came back with their food and the movie started.
Half way through the movie I saw Fawaz take out his phone, suddenly my phone vibrated.

I had a whatsapp from Fawaz,

Fawaz: meet me outside in a minute

Saba: what? no!

Fawaz: just do it, I'll be waiting

Saba: Fawaz la2! akhaf a7ad yshoufny!

He got up from his seat and read the message then sent this:

Fawaz: 1 minute :) I'll see you outside.

UGHHH,  he knew I couldn't resist. I turned to the girls and told them I had to go to the bathroom, so I got up and left.

I walked outside and looked right and left, trying to find Fawaz..he was no where..
I took out my phone and just as I began typing someone cane next to my ear and whispered

"Boo"

I turned around and found Fawaz in my face.

Saba: way yumaa khara3tny shfeek!

Fawaz: 3an eldala3 yallahh ma khara3tich wla shay; He said sarcastically

Saba: shtaby khali9ny

Fawaz: shfeech mesta3yila el filim bayekh a9lan

Saba; adry bes ya3ne ma7ib el nas tshoufny wagfa chthy ga3da akalim wa7id

Fawaz: shda3wa ana mu ay wa7d, w mnu be3arfich a9lan

Saba: ufff fineee! enzain bser3a gouly shtaby mn6ali3ny feek shay?

Fawaz: la bes malait

Saba: wallah ma3endik salfa, agoul ana badish el filim a7sanly

Fawaz: laih hal daja m3a9ba lana yeet weya Farah?

Saba: shaku m3a9ba ma hamny a9lan

Fawaz: ahaa... fa al7een 9ar ma yhemech ha?

Saba: la mnzeman

Fawaz: ee ee 9adagt

Saba: tadry enik tnarfiz lama t9eer chthy?

Fawaz: Eee adry bes 7ata lo anarfiz entay lail7en t7ebeeny

Saba: la t9adig nafsik wayid sha7ib feek ; I was starting to get annoyed.

Fawaz: khala9 khala9 ma t7ibeeny asif ok?

Saba: la mu ok mn gal ma a7ibik?

He came one step closer to me

Fawaz: Saba entay tabeen tyaneneeny wila shinu bl thab6?

I saw a smile grow on his face he was teasing me

Saba: al7een ana ely ayanenek wela ent ely tyaneny!

Fawaz: afaa 7aram 3alaich ana shsawaitlich al7een

Suddenly-

"Saba?"

I turned around to find myself facing Khaly S3oud

I began to feel beads of sweat forming in the palm of my hands I was so scared I wanted to blurt out "This is not what it looks like! ana mu mwa3da wa7idd!" but all I could say was..

Saba: Hala Khaly s3oud shlonik

Khaly S3oud: wallah tamam entay shlonich?

Saba: El7imdellah

Khaly S3oud: ha shyabech hnee?

Saba: em...yeet weya rfeejtay nshouf filim

Khaly S3oud: mnu hatha ely shiftich tkalmeena?

Saba: Ha? m-mnu...?

Khaly S3oud: Hatha

He looked at Fawaz then back at me

Saba: H-hhatha okhou rfeejty..

My voice was shaking, my uncle was a very conservative man and would definitely not approve of his niece talking to random guys out in malls.

Khaly S3oud: laish uhwa yay weyakum???

Saba: L-laaaa laa akeed la2! bes shefta bl 9edfa w salam 3alay bes hatha ely 9ar

Khaly S3oud: aha ok, enzain yallah entay eb ay theatre?

Saba: kahu hatha ely mnak

Khaly S3oud: ok yallah deshay w kamlay el filim

Saba: enshallah

Khaly S3oud stood there watching me walk back into the theater, I felt the blood rushing to my face and I felt dizzy, If my mom was ever to hear about this she won't let me go out again this late! It was safe to say 6al3ity was ruined, I saw Fawaz leave the cinema with Farah and that was it. I didn't even get a text from him asking me what happened..

When I finally got home I waited for someone to open the door for me.. I waited and waited until I saw someone come up to the door to open it.

It was my mom, and she was NOT happy.

Saba: Hala yuma

Mom: deshay dakhel

Saba:....

I walked into the house and turned to look at her angry face

Mom: Khalich S3oud dag 3alay elyoum

oh shi....

Saba: enzain..?

Mom: mnu hatha ely kintay ray7a el cinema weya?!

Saba: Shinu??!

Mom: jawabay el su2al, mnu ely kintay mwa3dita elyoum!

Saba: yuma wallah ma kent mwa3da a7ad shfeech chthy shakaitay feeny bser3a! ana mu chthy yuma ana bentich tgouleen 3any hal kalam?! Wallah ma re7t weya a7ad ghair rfeejaty!

Mom: tchathbeen khalich ha? ma teste7een 3ala wayhich!?

She walked towards me and lifted her hand to slap me across the face..

To be continued

Saba and Fawaz: 9

Fawaz: Saba ana a7bich

to be continued......

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I looked up at him not knowing what to say.

Saba: sh-shinu?

Fawaz: ha? la wla shay bes gelt a7ibich 7ag ely sawaity enich yeetay elyoum w khalaiteeny ath7ak washoufich

I felt disappointed for some reason.

Saba: ma sawait shay Fawaz, ana kila mawjouda meta ma 7tejtny w 7ata ana a7ibik wayid

He smiled an awkward smile, kind of like he was hiding something. He got up and reached his hand out to help me get up, I hesitated at first but then I held his hand and got up.

Saba: ay dor qurfat umik?

Fawaz: ana awadeech just follow me

Saba: okay

On our way down I ran into Murooj and her brother, it was kind of weird seeing her there.

Saba: Murooj?

She turned around, her face full of make up she had on really tight jeans and a tight top to go with it. I never saw her like this before even her hair was done perfectly.

Murooj: Saba! 7abeebty shyaybech ehnee?

Saba: tawny bas2ilich nafs el su2al, ana yaya asalim 3ala khalty w a6aman 3alaiha

I was completely ignored by Murooj as her eyes wandered over to where Fawaz was standing quiet with his hands in his pockets and looking far down the hall trying not to make any eye contact so that he could avoid having a conversation with Murooj I supposed.

Murooj: Hala Fawaz

He looked away from the end of the hall and looked at Murooj.

Fawaz: Hala shlonich

Murooj walked away from me and went to stand in front of him so he could see her better.

Murooj: Ana zaina el7imdellah enta shlonik, w umik shlonha

Fawaz: wallah ta3bana maskeena bes enshallah ra7 e6eeb wt9eer a7san

He looked over at me and winked, causing me to blush like crazy for some odd reason.

Murooj obviously got upset because he winked at me so she told him to show her where his moms room was.

Murooj: Enshallah allah yashfeeha, enzain Fawaz ana thay3aa mumken edaleeny qurfat'ha?

Fawaz: Akeed, follow me.

Murooj, like the little puppy she is followed him keeping no more than a few inches spaces between him and her. I walked behind her without saying a word.

I followed him back to the room then I said bye to khalty and left with my mom. We went down to leave the hospital and waited for our driver to pick us up.

When we got home I changed, prayed and went to my room to watch a movie online. I tweeted asking if anyone had any movie suggestions hoping for a reply I laid on my bed and waited.

I felt my phone vibrate under me, so I checked to see what it was from.

FawazAlX: "@SabaAlX watch The hangover dam enich 7abaitay 21 Jump street akeed bya3jbich"

I replied

SabaAlX: "@FawazAlX lool mashkour :p al7een ashoufa"

FawazAlX: "@SabaAlX el3afuu ;p"

Suddenly I got an email from Ask.fm telling me I had received a question. I signed into ask to see what it was.

"Shlon t3arfeen F ALX"

I quickly replied with

"family friend, mumken a3ref laish?"

ding!

(1) New question: "l2ana ana 9a7bita w mabeech tt3aligain fee fahma?"

I replied: "sta7ay 3ala wayhich wain ga3deen e7na?"

ding!

(1) New question: "I'm warning you :)"

I replied: "allah yahdeech bes"

(1) New question: "7abeebty I have proof etha entay mu m9adgatny ;) wetha tabeeny awareech I'd be more than happy to"

I replied: "La mashkoura adry F AlX mu mn hal no3 khalay "proofich" 7ag nafsich"

(1) New Question: "kaifich mu ela t9adgeeny ra7 eyee yom tn9admain mn suwalif hal walad w the only person to blame bwagt'ha is you ;*"

I could feel my heart rate getting faster and faster, I didn't want to believe this girl. For all I knew she was just a jealous person who saw his replies to me on twitter, Fawaz mu mn el6abi3 ely y9a7b banat...9a7?

I got on whatsapp and told him to check my ask and see what was being said about him.

Saba: Fawaz

Fawaz: Hala

Saba: check my ask

Fawaz: laish shinu fee?

Saba: just check

Fawaz: La7tha

He left for a minute then got back online.

Fawaz: shfee umha hathy?

Saba: so it's not true?

Fawaz: ma a3rf mnu hathy

Saba: you still didn't answer me, is it true?

Fawaz: Saba -.- ma3indy 9a7ba

Saba: kan 3indik awal?

Fawaz: la2

Saba: e7lif?

Fawaz: giltlich la2 Saba ma la da3y a7lif 3ala shay chthy sakheef

Saba: ma3tbr hal shay sakheef.

Fawaz: kaifich la t9adgeeny, gtg

Saba: ok

Fawaz: bye

Saba: bye -.-

What was wrong with him! why was he so moody all the time? Ugh whatever I waited for the movie to download and then watched it before going to sleep, I was hoping Fawaz would apologize for being so rude but who was I kidding, he never apologizes. I fell asleep angry at him but I couldn't do anything about it.

The next morning I was waiting to hear something from him, I got onto whatsapp and saw that he was already online but I knew he wouldn't say anything because he was so stubborn sometimes.

ding!

Ghalia: gm, Saba elyoum ana weyach w Sara bnshouf filim okay? ave at 6

Saba: gm, dgeega as2al umy w agoulich

Ghalia: okay :D

I asked my mom if it was okay and she said I should ask my dad so I called him and he said it was fine.

Saba: Galaw okay :D

Ghalia: Okay see you tonight then

Saba: Enshallahh x

at around 5:30 I got ready to go out and then I left. When I reached the ave I called Ghalia to see where she was.

Saba: Aloo

Ghalia: heyy

Saba: wainkum?

Ghalia: 3ind el cinema yalah ta3alay na6reenich bl dor 3ashan na7jiz 7ag el filim

Saba: okay kany yayatkum

I ended the call and went up to the cinema, when I got there my eyes looked for my friends through the huge crowd of people. Somewhere in the middle of the line I saw Ghalia and Sara waiting so I made my way over to them.


Sara: Sabaaa!

We hugged and then continued to wait in line.

Sara: umbaih banat shfee hatha ga3ed ykhezna?

Saba: madry la6al3ena 3ashan ma y2atheena

Ghalia: Ee 7igryy malich shghel fee malna khelg elyoum naby nestanis mu nthaye3 wagtna ma3ahum

Saba: Ee wallah

I took out my phone to check twitter, I hated waiting in line! I checked Fawazs' last seen and saw that he was on 3 minutes ago at 6:23 pm

Shda3wa ma ykalimny all day?
Suddenly I felt someone nudge my arm really hard

Ghalia: Sabaaa! umbaaihhhh!

Saba: shfeech way khara3teeny! laish edizeen?!

Ghalia: shoufay!

She looked over at the right side of the cinema trying to show me something.

Saba: ashoud shinuuu? fee nas wayid ma shouf shay!

Ghalia: 6al3ay 3adil! shiftay hatha ely mnak akher shay b3eed yam el bent ely labsa top a7mar?

Saba: Eee shfee?

Ghalia: chna yshba Fa-

Saba: Fawaz :o

Ghalia: eeee!

Saba: la akeed mu uhwa, shoufay el bint ely ma3aa tukfain...a9lan Fawaz mu mn hal no3 ana a3arfa

Ghalia: Ya bent entay shfeech 3amya? 6al3ay 3adil hatha uhwa Fawaz!

Saba: musta7eel

Ghalia: waaaih kaifech ma yenfa3 ma3ach el kalam bl 6agag

I got onto whatsapp trying my best to act as unaffected as possible even though I was close to tears but I didn't know why.

I got onto my chat with Fawaz and typed.

Saba: hey wainik?

Fawaz: hala, 6ali3

Saba: Ee wain?

Fawaz: ave

Saba: ah ok

I felt my heart fall in my stomach

Fawaz: laish?

Saba: bes as2al, mnu ma3ak?

Fawaz: my friend

Saba: mm ok

Fawaz: shfeech?

Saba: turn around

I saw him turn around looking confused until his eyes met mine

Saba: have fun on your date.

I saw him look at his screen and type, then suddenly the girl pulled him by his arm and turned his phone off then put it in his back pocket.

Some friend....ashkara it was more than that...ma twa8a3t Fawaz chthy..

I felt like my heart was breaking to pieces, like I wasn't special to him anymore, like I was nothing and like he was hiding so much from me. I felt so bad, bad enough to make me want to throw up.

He looked at me one more time, my mouth was still slightly open because of how surprised I was. He glanced my way then put his hand on the girls back and walked into the cinema.

to be continued..

Saba and Fawaz: 8

Saba: shfeek, sh9ayer??

I waited 5 minutes for a reply but he hadn't gotten on whatsapp since then. I decided to go into the 9ala since my mom would start wondering where I was now..Just as I was about to walk in i heard a woman shout

"degaw 3al es3aaf!"

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Saba: Eles3af? laish sh9ayerrr!!? ; I quickly ran over to the woman who yelled and asked.

Woman: um el 3aroos 6a7at 3alaina! 

Everything from there moved so fast, Before I knew it the wedding was finished and everyone had left.

Mom: maskeena khaltich allah yshafeeha ya rab, ehya shfeeha a9lan?

Saba: a3tiqid lail7een feeha 9ara6an

Mom: 9ara6an?! allah yashfeeha!

Saba: ameen, enzain mama 3ady arou7laha bl mustashfa?

Mom: akeed mumken bes laish? entaw mu graab

Saba: la bes ya3ne maskeena kasra kha6ry w madry chthy ya3ne eb nafs elwagt ashoufha shwaya

Mom: meta tabeen enrou7?

Saba: Madry wallah bacher? ana weyach 3al maghrb?

Mom: ok bes khal9ay wajbich w ne6la3

Saba: mashkoura


When we got home I quickly went to my room and changed into my pjs then called Fawaz...

Calling.....

no answer

Calling.....

no answer

Calling... *CALL ENDED*

....? Why did he end the call?

I got onto whatsapp and sent him a messge

Saba: "Fawaz red 3alay..."

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Saba:"Fawaz..laish ta7gerny? enzain okay sema3t 3an umik bes ta7gerny laish? allah yashfeeha bes ana shsawait?"

Fawaz: Saba wallah maly khilg

Saba: enzain bes kalimny shda3wa

Fawaz: saba bes

Saba: ma a9adeg...enta laish kila chthy lama y9eer shay ma3ay lazem akalmik w ana maly khilg bes when something happens to you you wont even talk to me about it!

Fawaz: mara7 a2atheech khala9 erta7ay

Saba: ...

Fawaz: ?

Saba: just talk to me I know something is bothering you and you'll feel better

Fawaz: saba shfeech ma tefhmeen? geltlech bes khala9!

Saba: ok.. shda3wa e6ale3 7aretek 3alay khala9 I'll leave you alone bes bagoulik bacher bayee el mustashfa weya umy

Fawaz: ok mashkoureen matga9roun

Saba: el3afu...goodnight

Fawaz: gn


I can't deal with this now, I know it wasn't his fault and that we was going through something tough I just didn't understand why he was keeping me in the dark.

The next day went by fast and finally the time to go to the hospital came, I hoped to see Fawaz there even though we didn't speak to each other all day. When we got to the hospital I looked for her room and knocked the door. We walked in and there was khalty and Fawaz on her right, my mom and I salamna 3alaiha w ba3dain umy weyaha g3edaw ysolfoun. Fawaz got up to go outside.

Saba: mama 3ady ag3ad bara shwaya?

Mom: laish?

Saba: bes theej hnee

(the room was small)

Mom: okay bes reday ba3d shwaya bnamshy

Saba: enshallah

I walked out the room and looked around for Fawaz, where did he go?! I went out to the lobby to see if I could find him but I saw no one I walked outside by the valet parking wla asma3 a7ad ygoul esmy

"Saba?"

I turned around wila it was Fawaz

Saba: ga3da adawer 3alaik

Fawaz: Saba deshay dakhl

I saw him hiding something in his hand

Saba: shinu hatha?

I moved to his right to see what it was...

Saba: Fawaz? ent mn mita etdakhin?!

Fawaz: Saba please mu wagta al7een

Saba: mu wagta al7een?! 3ayal meta wagta??? lama tkharib galbik w tamrith? ba3dain tabeeny ayee agoulik hal kalam?

Fawaz: bes pleasae 9ada3tay rasy

Saba: ma a9adeg! sh9ar feek! ent mu el Fawaz ely a3rfa laish tghayart?! shly ghayerak!

I felt close to tears

Fawaz: la Saba stop la tabcheen la tga63een galby tadreen eny ma at7amal ashoufich tabcheen

I closed my eyes and the tears fell

Saba: Fawaz la tsawy feeny chthy tara ana akhaf 3alaik wayed laish tsawy chthy bnafsik al7een ent shayef shga3d y9eer eb umik wtrou7 etdakhin?

He threw the cigarette on the ground and stepped on it.

Fawaz: asif mara7 a3eedha mara thanya

Saba: e7lif

Fawaz: enshallah

Saba: fawaz 3ashany...

Fawaz: enshallah geltlech

Saba: okay....

I looked down at the ground not knowing what to do or say now...Fawaz came closer to me

Fawaz: emshay

Saba: wain bnrou7?

Fawaz: emshay w btshoufeen

Saba: um, okay

I followed him and we went up to the roof of the hospital

Saba: y9eer neg3ad hnee?

Fawaz: Ee

Saba: sh3arifak bhal mukan?

Fawaz: ams dawart mukan 3ashan ad-

Saba: 3ashan etdakhin.. adry

Fawaz: ee

We sat on the ground and looked up at the sky

Fawaz: shga3d tfakreen fee?

Saba: wla shay..you?

Fawaz: ashya2 wayid

Saba: mithl shinu?

Fawaz: umy, jam3a, 7ayate...kil shay...

Saba: Enshallah allah ygawim umik bl salama kila ad3eelha wallah

Fawaz: ma tga9reen

He looked so sad it killed me... :(

Saba: Yallah 3ad eth7ak...mn zeman ma sheft eltha7ka el7ilwa, wl ghamaza mekhtafya laish t3athibny chthy?

Fawaz: shlon ath7ak w ana bhal 7al?

Without thinking I began to tickle him

Fawaz: shfeech entay!

Saba: tghaar?

He started laughing so I took it as a yes

Fawaz: la bes- shaklich- ytha7k

He tried to speak between laughing but he couldnt

Saba: allah allah kaaaa hathy el tha7ka ely a7ibhaaa!

Fawaz: bes besssswagfay bes ahahaaaa wagfay khala9! anaawareech

He couldnt breathe in between his words and it made me laugh, I stopped tickling him because my hands got tired

Fawaz: ana awareech! Your turnnnn!

Suddenly he started to tickle me but instead around my neck

Saba: hahahahhahahhah bes bessss sorry khala9 mara7 a3eedha wallah wallaaaah bes wagif magdar

Fawaz: la wallahhhh?

Saba: ee please please pleaseeee!

He stopped tickling me and I tried to calm down from laughing I felt light headed

Fawaz: 3ashan tt3alimain matsaween chthy mara thanyal; he said while smiling at me

I missed that smile.

Saba: awal w akher mara asway chthy!

Fawaz: a7san!

We became quiet all of a sudden.

Fawaz: Saba?

Saba: Hala

Fawaz: umy btmout?

Saba: staghferallah shl kalam la enshallah bes kil ensan bemout!

Fawaz: la ya3ne...ray e6eeb?

Saba: enshallah laish la2??

Fawaz: a7es umy ra7 tmout..

Saba: FAWAZ! SHL KALAM!

Fawaz: Saba maby umy tmout...

I saw tears welling up in his eyes, I didn't know what to do so I leaned in to give him a hug. Something in the back of my head told me I'd regret this later. We stayed hugging for a while, he cried a little but we didn't say a word, then he started playing with my hair.

RINGGGG

I jumped up from my phone it scared me.

*mama calling*

Saba: aloo?

Mom: entay wainich?

Saba: ga3da bara

Mom: weya minu?????

Saba: ma7ad bes tawa mar Fawaz w salamt 3alaih

Mom: deshay dakhl bnamshy ba3d 5 minutes

Saba: enshallah al7een ayee

I ended the call and looked at Fawaz

Fawaz: shfeeha umich?

Saba: bnamshy al7een

Fawaz: la la ge3day ba3ad

Saba: wallah aby bes magdar

Fawaz: ta3alay bes dgeega mu galat 3indich 5 minutes?

Saba: ee

Fawaz: 3ayal ta3alay

He grabbed me in for another hug.

3 minutes later..

Saba: yallah lazem arou7 now 9ijj

Fawaz: Saba..

Saba: hmm

Fawaz: bagoulich shay

Saba: goul

I looked at him worried, why did he sound scared?

Fawaz: Saba ana a7bich

to be continued......